2/15

Today I finished my 1st station of clerkship, Anesthesia. You know it means a lot for me. Remember when you drive me to RSMH because I have a night shift that day? The first few days of pandemics? You looked so happy back at the time. I wondered why? Ooho, it’s just daddy being daddy for the 10000000000000xxx times, I thought. Or maybe you were just enjoying your last days. You sent me a Whatsapp message asking me what Im doing at that time. I miss seeing your text, Dad. I miss your calls, too. I tried my best being there for everyone,so that they dont feel so alone. But I failed myself because it’s never been better than you were still here. After a long-busy day, I felt so alone. I have to do everything on my own now. I have to know the basics of automotive. I have to know when I should go to the car wash. (You know the carwash that we found? It will be moved to a new place bcs the lease is up) I have to do this and that, anything that you used to do. Please come to my dream Let’s go around the city, ice cream date, mie ayam date, or bookstore date. You can even talk about your new place. Or you dont have to talk. Just follow me driving thru the city. Or we can hold hands walking down the road. 01.50 AM Palembang Your eternal daughter.